7.07 That's Me Trying
Meredith: "So, this foundation does have a few more hoops to jump through than the others, but their primary focus is Alzeheimers research. And if you get this grant, it is more than enough to get us started."
Derek: "Wow, you really did your homework."
Meredith: "I'm a great student, just the kind you want around while doing a clinical trial."
(Cristina walks past them)
Derek: "How's that going?"
Meredith: "It's fine."
Derek: "Is this because Richard gave Hunt the million dollars and not me, is that why the things are frosty between you two?"
Meredith: "We're not frosty, we're fine. But if you're looking for solidarity I'd be more than happy to skip Owen Hunt's trauma certification lab."
Derek: "Go, get certified." (he kisses her)
Derek: "I'm just trying to write this grant proposal."
Bailey: "Why only trying?"
Derek: "Because the more you research, Alzeheimers is more depressing it gets. And then when you include the early onset at the type Ellis Grey suffered from, it just gets worse. There's a woman in England, she's 32. She can't recognize her 3 year old daughter. It's just... terrifying."
Derek: "Alzeheimers is a bad disease. We should cure it."
Derek: "I had the worst day today. I've been working on a grant proposal and I just couldn't do it. And I realized – it was you. It's a clinical trial for Alzeheimers, and I couldn't think about anything but you. I know you wanna be part of this trial but I can't have you anywhere near it."
Meredith: "Cristina blames me. She hates me."
Question: when was the last time a complete stranger took off her clothes in front of you, pointed to a big purple splotch on her back and asked: 'What the hell is this thing?' If you're normal person, the answer is, hopefully – never. If you are a doctor, the answer is probably – about five minutes ago. People expect doctors to have all of the answers. The truth is: we love to think that we have all of the answers. Basically – the doctors are 'know-it-alls'. Until something comes along that reminds us we're not.
We're all looking for answers. In medicine, in life, in everything. Sometimes, the answers we're looking for have been hiding just below the surface. Other times, we find answers when we didn't ever realize we were asking the question. Sometimes, the answers can catch us completely by surprise. And sometimes, even when we find the answer we've been looking for, we are still left with a whole hell of a lot of questions.